Sunday, December 28, 2008

Disappointment

Is it because I had already convinced myself? I just knew it was going to happen! The dates, times, and calculations all added up. I just knew it was my time to make plans...until today.

When my plan... was not HIS plan.

You are probably wondering what? What plan? Well...to many of you you might be thinking...really? When will you ever come to peace with this? When will it ever be enough?
It really is not the end of the world. So...here it is...the disappointment...I am NOT pregnant.

Ok...shocking news to many as so many wonder will those Apples have another child? Really...do they need another Apple? Need, want, desire or yearn for one is all a matter of one's heart in this matter.

I know there are many children out there in need, in want, in hopes for a family to call their own, so I don't know if His no to me is my call to help those who need homes, who want a mommy and daddy to tuck them in at night.

Or...if His no to me is to take better care of, nurture, and love more on the ones He has already blessed me with.

Which ever one it is...I know I will still need Him in my time of disappointment.

7 comments:

Alicia (dna) said...

I'm so sorry. We've been there, but God is faithful. He will bring you an answer with time. His plan is bigger and better than ours.

And not only this, but we also exult in our tribulations, knowing that tribulation brings about perseverance; and perseverance, proven character; and proven character, hope; and HOPE DOES NOT DISAPPOINT, because the love of God has been poured out within our hearts through the Holy Spirit who was given to us. Romans 5:3-5

Tara said...

I am sorry for your dissapointment and I will pray that He will bring you peace for what plans you should make and what lies ahead.

Pamela Johnson said...

So sorry, my friend. thinking of you...

Kyla said...

don't have any words to say....I love you and am sorry you are disappointed. BUT...there are other months and you are soooo young! love you

Klh said...

So sorry for your disappointment. I will keep you in my prayers.
And no, you do not have alzheimer's. I did have a longer post and accidentally deleted it. I did not have time at the moment to redo the entire post, so made it shorter but could not get my comments back. Thanks for sending another comment.
Ms. Kim

jam'n bell said...

God always has a plan for us...and most times, it's in His own timing. I know that first hand. Praying that He helps you find an answer.

Wife of the Pres. said...

Well I don't know what His answer is either, but you sure would be a great Mommy to one of those children waiting! Praying friend that His will is revealed to you sooner than later and thanks for being so REAL. He will honor that too I believe.

And now I don't think there is ever enough! He LOVES children, so why shouldn't we? You are on task with the ones you already have, so I think at least one more is in your future. Can't wait to watch His plan unfold whatever that is. Hang in there and hang onto HIM!